This week I had a course with the wonderful photographer Sonia Jansson. One of the things we did in the course was to really think why we take pictures. Why we have become photographers.
As I’ve been photographing for more than 20 years, I have of course thought of that more than once. I had never had such a deep insight as I had on Monday, though.
I’ve always been an admirer of life. The beauty of life, the magic of life. And specially, the urgency of live. I realised that this urgency of life is the reason why I’ve been living so intensely since my young years. And I’ve found out I’m not alone, the text below could have been easily written by me.
“I’m one of those people that lives with a hyper awareness of death. For some, that would mean living in a constant state of fear, stress or depression. For me, it means living with a strong sense of urgency to live out my purpose, connect deeply and not waste time on things that don’t matter.”
Stephanie Zamora, The Huffington Post
When I was a child, I had tons of activities, because I could never get enough of learning. When I was a teenager, things only got worse, as I could decide myself what I could learn and where I could go. In my young adult years, I traveled, traveled and traveled. I can’t even count on my fingers how many times I’ve stood like on top of a volcano with a strong wind blowing on my face and thought: ” Wow, I’m sooo happy right now I could die”, and then I would think,”NOOO, I can’t, I have to be able to do this again!”
I’ve also realised that this traveling was a scape of my so organised perfect life. I needed to get away of my comfort zone to feel I was learning something, that I was feeling challenged, so travelling became the best fire to my search.
In this urgency of life, I’ve also treasured moments that I knew were very special. Moments that will all be in Dumbledore Pensieve, so I could just dive in and re-live them over and over again. As Dumbledore was a little too far away from my reality, photography has become my “pensieve”. With my pictures, I could go back again and again and again to those wonderful things I’ve experienced and felt. Things I never wanted to forget. Memories I could go back to as a reminder and a confirmation of how wonderful this life is.
Photography has become a way for me of showing the world the urgency of life. That life is here to be lived at its most and that precious moments are those to be treasured and kept on our own private “pensieves”.
And look at Hanna & Ebba at how many wonderful moments they will already have gathered themselves! ♥︎